Where Have All The Fairness and Justice Gone To?

Guess what. Lots of things had happened here during our training. Conflicts and stuff. Don't wanna mention because they pissed me off. I wondered why do people always get mixed up with 'TRAINING' and 'WORKING'. They always take us as their 'WORKER' and not 'TRAINEE'. It's fine to ask us do some stuff because this is how we get to know how does things work BUT it's not their right to control us especially things that are out of their power.

These days they tend to say words that it's sore to our ears. Sometimes we couldn't resist our tears from dropping and all we could do was to tolerate, hold on and go through it. I know that "if we fall and couldn't get ourselves up, we are failure" but this is not the way to let us feel the pain. This is called doing it on purpose and taking things for granted because we are TRAINEES! FOC TRAINEES! Honestly, we thought to ourselves whether we really learnt something or we just helped them finished up their work.

We aren't their people so they look down on us. So we gotta show them that they are messing with the wrong group. Nah-ah. We'll do what is right and fight for what is wrong. It's not wrong for us to apply everything we've been taught right? We're all learning FYI and we're not here for them to release anger.They thought they could control us as if they were our superior. HELLO! Please, look in the mirror for one sec! We're just on the same line you asshole!

And to all those that have the same post as us, don't you dare think that you could get onto our head because you don't have the right!

Result has finally come out...

Oh no...

Finally...

My result....

Has..

Come..

OUT!!

It's a nightmare to see it. We were all so freakin' scared about it. But it kinda disappoints me because it wasn't like what I expect although mum and dad always say "it's ok." I'm not trying to have a high requirement but just want to have a better result. I'm glad that I'm able to go through all this and continue to the next term. But what worries me for now is my other bunch of friends. Those that I spent time and effort teaching til late at night (even through MSN explaining) and accompanying them til the end. :)

Guys, hope you all could make it through. I don't expect much but just as long as you guys have made an effort then it's fine. *wink*

Bro, I know you wouldn't disappoint me. Like you said so. ;)

Off Day!!!

Yup. It's my off day today and I'm borrowing Michelle's laptop and broadband to go online; update and read blogs, visit facebook. Yesterday was my first day at Beach Restaurant. The senior staff there were nice especially one. She taught me how to cook the soups and stuff. She even said she would teach me how to make sushi. OMG! But I've gotta wait til thursday because tomorrow is our orientation day. After 2 weeks of training, at last we are having our orientation day. Fyi, it's because the HR manager was out of town and he's just come back.

I had a croissant yesterday. The bakery abang gave it to me and it reminded me of Chef Karam's croissant. I miss it! :( Anyway, yesterday I was kinda early to work so I hung out at the Commissary Kitchen with Henry and his senior staff, Bella. (It's actually Saiful, but I don't have to explain more :P) So Bella was calling me "Amoi!" I was like "Don't I have a name for you to call?" He likes to change people's name. He used to call me SLICER! wth... So, we were talking and asking which staff was Spongebob, Patrick, Doraemon and Shin Chan. I was laughing like hell and in the end I knocked my head on the steel rack. Yea.. It's damn painful and I can still feel it's swollen til now. So paiseh and yet it's fun. :)

Jie, I manage to read New Moon more than half dy. Yay.. *wink*

I beg you, mosquitoes.

Do not thirst for my blood.

Find someone else..

:(

It's 11:4oam and I haven't had anything yet.... Hmm...

Getting used to it... Rainy Days...

It's the second week now. I've completed my training in Asian Kitchen. Let me see. I have obvious wounds on my hands and fingers. But still I think it's worth it as I experienced quite a lot of things. *wink* From tomorrow onwards I'll be having the 3-11pm shift for a week while there rest are working morning shift, which makes me going to work and coming back alone. Gotta get used to it though. :)

What will I be doing in Beach Restaurant tomorrow? Will they teach me how to cook and prepare Japanese food? Hmm... I hope I'll be ableto cope up with everything.... Everyday I'm going to work with fear. Fear of doing mistakes that shouldn't be done.

Sometimes my day rains so heavily that even I myself can't seem to stop it. Where are you when I need you? You never seem to come my way. It's disappointing enough. Who would somehow notice me when I'm lonesome? Who would somehow make me happy and liven up my days with laughters instead of sadness? I've tried. But nothing seems to work out well.

What can I do to make things better? What can I do to stop my rainy days? What can I do to mend myself? This unmendable heart of mine?

Heart,

It's been a hard time for you.

Sorry to make you suffer.

But don't worry.

Time will help us through.

Please don't give up on me

When I've not given up on you.

You're my only hope to survive.

And the only place I can confide in.

So please...

Stay.

I need you so badly...

Please come back...

:'(

How To Make My Life Not So L-I-F-E-L-E-S-S?

Another working day has passed and it's time to enjoy! Yew's family (dad, mum and little brother) came over for a visit as she misses them so much. Aww.... So it's her off day today. How good. Jie, are you sure you are coming? :(

Anyway, me and the gang will be going for a swim later. (still wonder whether to go swimming or not) And after that his dad will bring us to Long Beach. Never been there so must appreciate this moment. *wink*

I'm actually waiting for the shutter bus to come and I guess I gotta sign out now.

Hate mosquitoes. They are thirst for my blood.

Bloody hell.

FINALLY!!!!

OMG!! I'm back, everyone! After a week plus of torture here. I've got to say this that it's LIFELESS over here. Really LIFELESS! Everyday go to work, have meals then go back quarters, chit chat chit chat then oi oi. It's been like this since the first day we came here. Quarters is like far from the resort where you have to take shutter bus like an hour or 3o minutes earlier to resort which makes me waking up 2 hours early before work! Dammit.

I am currently working in kitchen and guess what? Being in the kitchen is making me so pek chek. Most of the nights, we would complainto one another. And I mean MOST of the nights. Our rest day is different, shift is different, department is different. Everything is DIFFERENT! The worst meal we ever had was just one hard-boiled egg and rice with curry sauce. (actually there were a few dishes there but we didn't like them.)

It's not the same like those of you in SHOOK, WESTIN, some more in HONG KONG and FRANCE. :P Don't ask me why did I choose here because I have no idea. -_-"

Friend managed to get a broadband for us so if we are free or it's our off day, we might borrow it from here because besides that, we have nothing else to do. Sad rite?

It's not the same like in Langkawi where you can see rows of restaurants as you walk out of the resort. You won't see ROWS of it but just on e or two where tou have to walk. We walked before and by the time you reach your destination, you were all sweaty... -_-"

Anyway, don't want to talk about it anymore before I'm going to explode.

You know what I can't wait for?

COMPLETING MY TRAINING!!!