2011..

There has been a lot of sadness and happiness happening for the past one year. Blog is getting more dead as time goes by...=.=" There isn't any happiness to share or boast about though.

Things hasn't been changing but there are times that makes me wants to go back to the olden days where worries has not yet found me.

Will try to update my dear blog more than seldom..=P

c'est tout..

Bienvenue, 2011 et bonne chance!

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I really cannot think of anything to blog about - except for the story of the Mr. Know-It-All-And-Inconsiderate Manager. He's just getting on my nerves everytime I see him. *ARGH* the thought of him just made me sick of it!

He's just a new manager that had been working there since June, and he liked to do last-minute work, which I really HATE! He has no sense of responsibility and until the last day of my training, I had never heard any of the F&B staff saying how much they liked him. Instead, all I heard were just dislike and how annoying he was.

Even my last day of training, he wouldn't let me finished it with PEACE. Asked me and another trainee, Sam with one F&B staff to distribute flyers on Ramadhan promotion at Giant. Okay, I don't mind doing it. But, he, as a manager wasn't even with us to do it! We were just trainee and yet he just leave us doing it! Leaving us to go out of the hotel and do things on our own WITHOUT any superior's supervision! If anything happened to us, would he be responsible?

Imagined me wearing high heels, and walked around. I didn't just walk around Giant, I walked almost all shop lots around it under the hot sun!(It was 2pm) I didn't even expect him to ask me to do it on the last day or Ramadhan. I'm sorry to say this, but I wonder where was his brain. Please, who would want to eat outside when it's the last day of Ramadhan even if it's a cheaper price?

Fine. I let it go. Then came another stupid idea of his, on the same day. He asked me and Sam to design wordings for the restaurant and staff canteen. ARGH! This really got on our nerves. Raya was already the next day and he only asked us to do it the day before. He left so much work for me to do and everything was last minute! How smart he was! We didn't care and we just did whatever we could. Honestly, it was ugly!

I almost argued with him because he scolded me for nothing! I just didn't like it when he accused me for nothing, accused me when he's just being lazy for not doing his job as a manager! My explanation just didn't get into his ears and brain. Lucky my supervisor was there to help me out and prove that what I had said was true. I wonder, was it because he didn't understand my English or his brain wasn't at the right place? Honestly, he never even taught me anything and all he knew was just ordering me doing this and that. Even making his every-morning coffee became my job! Okay, I can accept this though.

Because of him, everyday I wished the time would just reach 5pm in a blink. I wished he wouldn't be in his room and get out of my sight. I wished he would just let me do my work in peace. I was already ready to 'fight' with him if he wrote something wrong in my appraisal. Not that he had to write everything good about me, but something that it's not right.

He as a manager didn't even know how to motivate his own staff. How was he going to survive? Front Office Assistant Manager was just a b****! Treated only manager and not manageress good. Not even her staff. Once in a while I should say. I never greeted her because I wasn't like her, a hypocrite. I didn't see why I should respect her when she didn't. It made me feel no pride. I'm not her dog, nor her maid.

Okay, I guess I feel much better now..=.="

*CHAK*

SOMEONE had just spammed my chat box and complained that I hadn't been updating my blog. Well, I seriously had no idea what to blog about. I'm not a full-time blogger or even a part-time blogger. =.=" (joking joking =P)

Anyway, everyone in BDH 34 will be having their training and so am I. My next destination? my own hometown. Yes, that's right. In Sandakan. Mum's been complaining that I SHOULD NOT and MUST NOT and NEVER again to choose anywhere near the water. So basically, no more islands for me this time. So, I just had to choose somewhere ON GROUND which led me to choose Sabah Hotel.

It's now pounding so fast to think that my training is gonna start soon. Real soon, I mean. Well, my darling Yen Wei has already gone through her training a week earlier due to the request from her hotel (Smart.. =.=")

It's been 4 days since the day I arrived and I feel so useless for sleeping most of the time. Well, I went out for tea time with two of my friends and we talked quite a lot of stuff; everything that we have missed and not updated. so basically it's more likely to be gossip time.

I don't really enjoy flying for almost 3 hours on a plane to Sandakan. It hurt my backbone and neck. Expecially when you are sitting at almost the 'tail' of the plane. You just feel like vomitting. *urgh*

Time to wish for something *wink*

~I wish that my training this time would be a meaningful one (pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease)

~I hope time would pass very quickly but useful at the same time. =)

Everyone, wish you all the best and see you in 3 months time...*wink* *xoxo*

I hope that my blog is raising from 'death' now...

Although it's just ONE post..=.="

What should I blog about?

What more..Diploma has officially ended and who's continuing and who's not..Not so sure... But one thing for sure; I'll miss each and everyone. All the times that I had with them is just too precious to be priced.

For 2 years I've been with this bunch of crazy and siao siao people in group 4. We were strangers to each other for the first day in class, and after weeks classes, we became close and after months of it, the 'true' colours in everyone had been revealed.=P

There were laughters, sadness, tears and even argument but we stay as one. We worked as a team and it's the best thing that I liked the most about us being together. I can never have such good group. Group 4 is always the best in my heart..=)

We were just like a big family tree. We had grandparents, parents and kids, relatives. People looked at us with frowning faces as they heard us calling "grandpa! daddy! mama!" But we enjoyed it, didn't we?

We had all sorts of names given; Soul Suckers, The Batangs, Blonde etc etc. all funny names but we acknowledged them, proves how sporting we were...Which was why we were fated to be in a group. =)

Love you guys so much. Not going to forget each other, will we? Hope so.....

What a day.....

MY GREAT APOLOGY for not updating my blog. Really feeling lazy and I don't know what to blog about. Let's see. First day of CNY was all about staring at the desktop (dad bought for 二姐), listening to mum and 大姐 chit chatting, listening to music (as always) and at last seeing 大姐 fell asleep. =.= That's what basically I did for today.

Finals is just around the corner and my preparation is simply not enough. Gosh. How I wish I could turn back the time. Lately, there has been a lot of problems popping out. I don't blame them for popping out but why now? It's so frustrating.

How I wish I could just close my eyes and the next thing I know, everything would be different. Everything would be what I've always wanted. But...I won't be so fortunate right??

Happy Chinese New Year...

Happy Valentine's Day...

To you...

Yes, you...

New Year, New Target, New Resolution

Another new year has come and everything starts all over again; college, lifestyle, routine etc etc. I managed to meet up with some old friends before they leave for further studies. One of my besties, Nicole has left for KDU yesterday and she's doing fine. Hope she will. =) It'll be her first day at college tomorrow. Good luck, mate!

As time goes by, fear in me gets worst. Everything just scares me off. Whatever I think of, the consequences that I will think have to be a negative one. I can't help it. I'm being such a coward since don't know when. How pessimistic. One thing for sure I know. I'm lack of confidence. I'm afraid to face the situation because I'm a coward. I'm afraid to go through it because I don't have confidence inside me. My future is in my hand. I handle it fully. Which is why it scares me off because I don't know what will my future be. No one knows. How will my road of journey in front be? Is it as perfect as a newly-made highway? Or will it be a crooked, creepy and steeply road with holes and trees all over, making me difficult to continue my journey? Honestly, I don't know.

When I'm into something, something in my heart just stop me. I will lose focus on it. This is not right. This shouldn't be the way. In just a blink, it's already 7th January 2010. A week has gone. Fear has increased double, heartbeat pounds faster as ever. What am I supposed to do to stop all this fear and worries? Possibly, anyone that I can turn to? All these fears are unspeakable. I don't know what they are. They are just disturbing my mind and soul and not telling me who they are. This is a total insane. What is my destiny trying to tell me? I don't know...

Road of life is never easy to walk. That's why it's called "Life". It's a journey, with obstacles everywhere. So suspicious that you can't see them until you reach closer to them. Until a period of time, your destiny is in front, waiting for you to come and meet them. Good? Or bad? No idea.

Things been running in my mind for quite some time. Now, I know what I should be doing, what I should be thinking, what I should go after first and after that, what is the important thing in life and after that. To overcome my fear, I should face it. To make my heart beats normally, I should relax my mind and not think it the hard way. To do things I want to do, I should build up my confidence and plan for it.

New year, new target, new resolution. Will see if this is a good year for me. (It doesn't turn out good for me in 2009 - well, all the years are never really good years for me though)

If You are listening and watching over, You know what I've always wanted...

Happy New Year